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And a lot of other things.
I am here to only be me.
And, I am still love.
Today:
I am living in Bellingham, Washington, on the ancestral and unceded territory of the Nooksack, Lummi, and other Coast Salish peoples.
I am acknowledging their enduring presence and stewardship of this land and waters.
I am holding responsibility for how I live here with respect, awareness, and care.
Today:
I am responding only to the name Tukayote Helianthus.
I am aligning as a finsexual, masculine presenting, AMAB, non-binary, and queer person.
I am using he/they pronouns.
I am practicing ethical relationship anarchy with multiple connections, on all levels, built entirely on unconditional love.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am seeing with my own two eyes that I am love, unbelievably strong love, resilient love, unkillable love, and completely unstoppable love.
I am accepting that I am beautifully imperfect and deliciously flawed.
I am doing my best always AND I am making new mistakes unintentionally.
I am learning from previous mistakes and I am not repeating them.
I am living with grace regardless.
I am keeping my current identity and never losing myself again.
I am trusting myself to never break my own heart again.
I am rising from the ashes of life hurting me, keep coming back for more, and I am always stronger and wiser as a result.
I am understanding that I am not broken and never have been.
I am existing knowing that I am enough, always, exactly as I am.
I am realizing and mindfully containing my power.
I am controlling myself.
I am knowing that I am lovable and worthy of love exactly as I am.
I am accepting who I am, radically.
I am being loved by many.
I am loving myself, unconditionally.
I am sharing my love and heart with everyone unconditionally.
I am enjoying dating myself and I am absolutely my type.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am standing accountable for my past and present behaviors and decisions, by not repeating my mistakes and any old toxic patterns.
I am owning my past and present behaviors and decisions, immediately and completely.
I am making amends, where I can, with people I have hurt or harmed with my behaviors and decisions, past or present.
I am acting conscientously and humanely with my freedom.
I am protecting my agency.
I am showing up honestly with myself and others.
I am choosing ethical behavior in how I treat people.
I am living in integrity with myself.
I am honoring and living by my values and morals.
I am being mindful, respectful, humane, and responsible with my choices and decisions, moving forward.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am living alone and cherishing my solitude.
I am electing to be independent.
I am enjoying full autonomy.
I am feeling free as a fucking bird from my old toxic patterns and behaviors.
I am obligating myself to nobody.
I am attaching securely to the people in my life.
I am choosing to be slow burning in deeper bonds.
I am being deliberate with romance and intimacy.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am building a life I want, need, and deserve.
I am advancing my life forward every day.
I am discovering my true identity and completely killing my old one.
I am creating space for the right things to fill my life.
I am living my life with fierce tenacity, to the fullest.
I am improving my situation and experience, continuously.
I am choosing my condition to be happy and at peace with myself.
I am ending my self-hatred and internal shame.
I am pouring self-love into myself.
I am removing and denying access to the people who hold me back from living my life, the way I want.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am improving humanity and my relationships by completely eliminating my toxic patterns, and replacing them with healthy ones.
I am maintaining my promises and committments.
I am setting boundaries and keeping them.
I am communicating my struggles, challenges, wants, needs, and feelings, openly and prompty, instead of avoiding them and holding them in.
I am sticking to healthy interdepedence.
I am being real, not performative.
I am trusting others to manage their own lives and decisions.
I am holding others accountable for their decisions and the consquences they have earned and deserve.
I am denying access to those who hurt me on purpose.
I am believing the actions of people instead of their words.
I am keeping those who are peaceful and hold my heart with care.
I am learning about and healing my trauma responses.
I am saying “NO” abruptly to things that I do not want to participate in.
I am choosing to be on an employment sabbatical.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am recovering as a sober man from many drugs and alcohol.
I am committing to never using alcohol or drugs again.
I am choosing behaviors that do not reinforce other people’s addictions.
I am mentoring and supporting those who are pursuing recovery and sobriety.
I am walking a new path of emotional sobriety.
I am detoxing emotionally.
I am protecing myself emotionally and physically from people who abuse me.
I am being mindful of and I am disengaging from unsafe, impulsive, and compulsive urges.
I am controlling my emotions and feelings.
I am managing all of my mental health challenges.
I am regulating my nervous system.
I am experiencing self-awareness.
I am working with my internal family system and all my parts.
I am facing my shadows and I am tending to them as I discover them.
I am following my manifesto and mantras.
I am freeing myself from my mental poisons.
I am obeying the law and my personal ethics.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am a certified peer-supporter.
I am a certified mental-health first-aider.
I am a long-distance walker.
I am a traveler.
I am a hiker.
I am outdoorsy.
I am a photographer.
I am a dancer.
I am a writer.
I am a music enthusiast.
I am a disabled USAF veteran.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am a father.
I am a brother.
I am a cousin.
I am an uncle.
I am a nephew.
I am an adult orphan.
I am a human fucking being.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am giving my love generously.
I am loving everyone, without conditions, equally.
I am protecting myself by having no-contact with some people I love.
I am maintaining my love, with boundaries, with those who have hurt me or left my life.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am loving myself with grace, through my mistakes, instead of punishing, shaming, and numbing myself.
I am allowing myself to grieve my losses.
I am letting my tears out instead of bottling them up.
I am feeling my feelings without numbing or avoiding them.
I am attaching without fear of abandonment, rejection, or loss of love.
I am practicing self-alignment, instead of collapse.
I am releasing my anger and rage in healthy, non-destructive, non-harmful ways whenever I feel it building.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am experiencing gratitude for everyone, everything, and every experience I have had in life, even the negative ones.
I am living my best life and I am lucky to have wonderful people living it with me.
I am journeying on the most fantastic adventure in life I have ever been on.
And I am still love.
Today:
I am love.
I am strong love. I am resilient love. I am unkillable love.
I am authentically and genuinely who I am, for A LOT OF FUCKING reasons you may not understand.
I AM SOBER AND IN RECOVERY FROM ALCOHOL/DRUG ABUSE AND MENTAL HEALTH CHALLENGES.
I am a very different person than you are used to and a lot more than some of you can handle.
I am unpopular with some of you because I am my true self for once.
I am being accountable for harms I have caused by not repeating my mistakes and patterns, and making amends where I can.
I am deeply committed to never change any part of who I am at the core, ever, for anyone, or any reason.
I am truly happy with who I am now, even if you aren’t, I am serious as shit ABOUT this, you can laugh, and IT’S still NOT A JOKE.
I am sorry, but not actually sorry.
You can’t stop me from loving you, even if you don’t love me, because Unconditional means unconditional.
I am completely ok with you bouncing and i won’t be taking it personal.
Love me or leave me, You have the agency and autonomy to do so, and I’m not stopping you.
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