This WILD Journey Began on November 17, 2025.

NO ANNOUNCEMENT. JUST GONE.

I suddenly disappeared. Wait? What?

I completely vanished. Gone.

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I didn’t slowly drift away. I didn’t “take a break.”

I deleted everything. Permanently. Intentionally. For a reason.

My old website: Gone.
Instagram profiles: Gone.
Facebook profile and pages: Gone.
Threads: Gone.
Flickr: Gone
Vimeo: Gone
YouTube: Gone
LinkedIn: Gone.
Photography website: Gone.

Persona and Performance: Gone.
Thousands of followers and online friends: Gone.

People have been wondering where the fuck I went. A lot of people didn’t even notice.

I had left and forward-deployed to a new, emerging, and foreign war with my patterns and behaviors.

I stepped away from nearly everything in my life, especially the god-damned internet, and that was just a step in a very deep-cleaning of myself. A big and necessary step towards figuring out who I really am.

Last year, hands down, was the most transformative year of my life. I walked right out of 2025 feeling freedom from a lifetime of burdensome patterns.

Moving Forward:

2026 is already well on its way to become even more transformative. I am on a big, new, and exciting path in my life, with a lot of really special people. Great things are happening all the time.

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I BURNED BRIDGES, ON PURPOSE

The START of My Zero-Return Recovery

My life really needed a big change. The universe abruptly dropped this reality in my lap one day and said “good luck, you are going to need it.” It was a surprise nobody, even myself, saw coming.

The reality was true—I really was stuck in a lot of ways. My shadows were chasing me. I was living a life full of self-hatred and running from it. Eventually all of it caught up to me and I began changing everything in my life.

Drastically. In very unpopular ways.

Nobody in their right mind would have advised to make the changes the way I did. It was a knee jerk reaction and me avoiding myself, yet again. I blamed people for my problems to justify my sudden changes instead of owning my shit and demonstrating accountability for the years of destructive avoidant behavior and choices that I had made as a result of my patterns.

The changes I made were terribly executed, not going to lie. Terribly timed. Terribly delivered. Terribly received. Terribly upsetting. Terribly destructive. Terribly hurtful.

The unanticipated changes blindsided people, catching them completely off guard and unprepared.

The changes uprooted many of my connections.

The way I made the changes confused and hurt the hell out of a lot of people.

I’m dedicated to being more graceful and thoughtful in how I make changes moving forward. Being aware of how my changes affect others. Lesson learned.

I made a big fucking mess of a lot of things in this process. I know this. I own this. I’m remorseful. I feel guilt about it every day.

It wasn’t without collateral damage and that part will forever suck.

That said, I did burn these bridges to the ground. It was no accident. It was not to intentionally harm others; in the moment it felt like it was the only thing I could do to protect myself from the big shadows emerging.

I’ve been rejected, abandoned, lost a lot love, and lost a lot of special people as a result.

People are permanently gone from my life now. Even though necessary, this realization deeply stings.

Moving forward:

I’m walking away from almost everything I used to have and know in my life. Leaving so much behind. For good. Forever.

I’m being accountable for my decisions and changes by identifying and changing my patterns. Changing who and what I allow in all aspects of my life now. Seeing my shadow and no longer ignoring it. Healing it.

I’m severing ties to everything I don’t need anymore.

I’m learning big lessons, and gaining priceless wisdom, from reflecting on a lifetime of decisions that weren’t fully aligned with my wants, needs, values, morals, and ethics. These decisions in my life hurt me, and hurt others, time after time.

They say, “Know better, do better.” That is my only option and mission in life.

Doing better for my sake and for the sake of everyone around me.

I’m doing this in every aspect of my life now.

So I can be who I really am.

I am intentionally choosing how I live now, and how I operate. Hence, the manifesto I wrote.

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